Lately my mind has been floating, unable to write anything lately. so I decided to make a list of what I would write about.
here is a glimpse at my heart lately:
content being single
the whole “idea” that all you need is God is a good idea if my body and spirit truly believed it
believing Jesus’ life, his message vs. Trusting
would I die for Christ, or does it just sound good? you repeat “love thy neighbor as yourself,” “forgive those who have trespassed against [you],” ect, ect. Do you live it? Do I live it?
family is beyond heredity
what does it mean to truly love God with all your heart? being holy like God is holy
why are some christians worried about insignificant pronouns like he/she/jehova referencing God?
isn’t God more mightier and glorious than our human developed language?
what is joy in Christ?
i find myself doubting my love for God and presence of God when i don’t feel joyful.
do i really grasp onto how much god loves his children?
i want to be a blank canvas brought to life by God’s love
i share all this wisdom that uncontrollably flutters from my lips…it makes me wonder why I don’t follow some of it.
what is suffering for Christ?
Is it natural? Is it something we should strive for? Is it relative?
what is my next step?
i already left school, want to start a coffee shop, lovin my job, am without corporate health insurance, school loans tapping my shoulder, boys, want to volunteer, need to rest, guilty about not pursuing some relationships
what does alcohol and other drugs look like in the eyes of Christ?
will I always have this feeling of helplessness…
wanting to cure everyone’s sign of pain, scars, weakness
maybe that’s my fault of not trusting
i need to realize i’m not Jesus.
how beautiful God is to show me his face in precious animals, children, and strangers with so many stories…through their scars, hands, eyes..
Why have I cried so much lately?
Jesus and later peter talk about “being nothing” what does that mean? what does that look like?
hm…maybe we are nothing, only in Christ we are something.
why do people hold so much importance on this shell of a body, yours, his, hers?
sometimes I think it would be beautiful to be blind
what does being set apart really mean?
shouldn’t we, as a part of the kingdom of God, hold trust in our kingdom rather than the kingdom of man?
are extremes bad?
sometimes I feel numb..
…..Lord all i want is to close my eyes and trust that each footstep is fully embracing Your Truth.
thanks for sharing Brittney, this is so good for us to do, I think…..
what I’m working with:
how do I understand grace so that I’m not always let down when I’m not perfect?
how do I actually get wholeness from God instead of relying on my wife, who can never meet all of my needs?
how do I do my work with pure motivations and not just “get through” each day?
if God is so powerful, why do I struggle to see His power?
why do we always get up so early to go to work?
why can’t women ever get over insecurities about how they look?
….but I’m pretty sure God is there and if I keep living with this community and letting love come from God, things will work out.
brittney, that was beautiful in our living room last week, and it’s beautiful here now.
- why don’t my lips sing His praise every morning?
- how do i make my gifts work for me, others, Him? (And how do i change the order of that sentence?)
- what happens if we multiply and i have to lead a cell “too soon”?
- who decides what is “significant”?
- where have all the folk-singers gone?
- when did this become my life? i love it.
let us rest in the sovereignty of God, and the joy it brings.
Thanks for sharing with us what you’ve been working with. I think it’s really important that you’ve joined up with us in working these works out. I can say that the “who I’ve been working with” has made all the more difference to the what I’ve been working with, and I’m glad that you are among those people. - Art