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Today is Martin of Tours Day

I have received a lot of inspiration from our ancestors in the faith this year. Our community in the Spirit of Jesus stretches beyond our own experience, into the past and into eternity. So I dare recommend to you Martin of Tours, today — since Veterans Day is also the “saints day” of the patron saint of France and of soldiers. What’s more, Martin of Tours is one of the mentors of my beloved Celtic church with whom I have been traveling all year.

Martin was co-opted by the first French kings as their saintly champion. His intervention from heaven was credited for Frankish military victories 100s of years after he was dead. Nonsense. Martin of Tours would best be known as the patron saint of EX-soldiers.

As a teenager Martin became a Christian even though it was a risky thing to do. Being a follower of Jesus was a distinctly odd thing to do in what the Roman Empire called Gaul, at the time. It was a particularly odd thing to do in his military family. He was supposed to be like John McCain and become a soldier like his father and grandfather, so he did. But he was a Christian, first.

One day he was at the gates of the city of Amiens with his soldiers and Martin met a scantily dressed beggar. He impulsively cut his own military cloak in half and shared it with the man. That night he dreamed of Jesus wearing the half-cloak he had given away. He heard Jesus say to the angels: “Here is Martin, the Roman soldier who is not baptized; he has clad me.” (see Matthew 25!) Here’s how El Greco painted the scene 1200 years later.

Before long Martin went out and got baptized. He was 18. He served in the military for another two years until, just before a battle in 336, he decided that his faith prohibited him from fighting. He said, “I am a soldier of Christ. I cannot fight.” He was charged with cowardice and jailed, but in response to the charge, he volunteered to go unarmed to the front of the troops. His superiors planned to take him up on the offer, but before they could, the invaders sued for peace, the battle never occurred, and Martin was released.

He went on to become a leader in the church, but not before he went off to be a hermit in the style of the radicals of the Egyptian desert. Like them, Martin did not want to see his faith totally co-opted by the powers that be. Christianity in Gaul was quickly becoming an arm of the state, as Emperor Constantine made it an official religion of the empire and began constructing church buildings that looked just like Romans law courts.

Martin’s biographers described the life of the community he founded, which was so influential on the Celtic Church, like this:. “Many also of the brethren had, in the same manner, fashioned retreats for themselves, but most of them had formed these out of the rock of the overhanging mountain, hollowed into caves. There were altogether eighty disciples, who were being disciplined after the example of the saintly master. No one there had anything which was called his own; all things were possessed in common. It was not allowed either to buy or to sell anything, as is the custom among most monks. No art was practiced there, except that of transcribers, and even this was assigned to the brethren of younger years, while the elders spent their time in prayer. Rarely did any one of them go beyond the cell, unless when they assembled at the place of prayer. They all took their food together, after the hour of fasting was past. No one used wine, except when illness compelled them to do so. Most of them were clothed in garments of camels’ hair. Any dress approaching to softness was there deemed criminal, and this must be thought the more remarkable, because many among them were such as are deemed of noble rank.”

Apart from the camel hair, we have a lot in common with our ancestors in the faith from Gaul. I like to emulate passionate people who have imitated Jesus. Let’s keep up the good faith and good work! As a result, we can make some Spirit-inspired history of our own.

Africanized Paradigms

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Steve Biko, in his essay White Racism and Black Consciousness wrote “In time, we shall be in a position to bestow on South Africa the greatest possible gift—a more human face.”  His idea was not limited to just showing South Africa-but restoring to the rest of people on the planet the important worldview more communitarian and a more people-before-stuff way to live.

I’m grateful that we have lots of opportunities to not only learn about Biko, but about the larger context of people that he spoke from.  One of those is the upcoming West African Drumming Classes

In getting ready for the next round of classes, some friends and I spent a few hours last night building drums (photo set here).
It takes a lot of hard work and a long time to just put a djembe together, before you can even play it (and play many together).  It is not a very rapid process, and we had some great conversations last night about how easier it would be to use a fiberglass drum and throw a synthetic head on it (rather than having to stretch an African goatskin across hand-carved wood).

How often we face a similar temptation with our spirituality.  Do we really have to be a community?  Do we really need to pull 100′ of rope just to be able to play a drum?  Does it have to stink like a dead goat from Guinea?  Isn’t there an easier way to get transformation?  Isn’t there a way that requires less time or effort to follow Jesus.

Meko, Rachel, and Jay in the re-heading process of a djembe

I’m reminded of the old African proverb that goes something like “if you want to go fast, go alone.  If you want to go far, go together.”  I guess you could try to find an easier way, or attempt to invent some trick to “get there” quicker with Jesus.  Even if you could, would you really want to?

responding to God

‘ve been trying to keep up with my daily dose of Brennan Manning since my friend Kim gave me a copy of The Ragamuffin Gospel:  Good News for the Bedraggled, Burnt Out, and Beat Up.
Today I read an insight of his that casts some light on what I think a lot of us are working through this season:  trying to do enough, or the other side-feeling bad about not trying enough.

“American spirituality still seems to start with self, not with God.  Personal responsibility replaces personal response…The emphasis is always on what I do rather than on what God is doing in my life.  In this macho approach God is reduced to a benign old spectator on the sidelines…We become convinced that we can do a pretty good job of following Jesus if we just, once and for all, make up our minds and really buckle down to do it.”

How freeing it is, indeed, to not put off letting Jesus work until we have it all put together.  I can think of a million reasons why I’m not firing on all cylinders right now-and if I can only___________ than I’ll get right with Jesus.

We can almost instinctively talk about our debt, having small kids, not kicking our bad habits, our living situation, our poor diet, or lack of exercise as if they are God’s major barriers-not just our struggles or limitations.  Let’s own the limitations as ours (not God’s), and let our redemption come from Christ (not us).

Jesus works beyond circumstance.  If you’re having a hard time right now, that’s okay.  We all do, we’re not there yet.  Rather than overly dwelling on limitations we can own them/admit them, let Jesus in, and follow him on to new life.

I think Christ has a lot to say about it beyond our circumstance/need/limitations/sin/brokenness/struggle.  How are you responding to what Jesus is doing  in you?  How are you responding to what Jesus is doing in your cell?  How are we responding to what Jesus is doing in theWhat is Jesus trying to do in you?  What is Jesus doing in your cell?  What is Jesus going to do in the megalopolis?

paying attention to the Rising

We’re post resurrection, and I am already easily distracted from living in the Rising. I can get so busy that I can even miss the rising of apparently dead or dying things.

There are these trees on Frankford Ave, one pretty close to the front door of my office. On Sunday, my friend from out of town asked a local friend to take a picture of the blossoming branches-I don’t know what kind of tree they are but they are reminiscent of the cherry blossom. Three days later, after walking by the trees without yet noticing the blooming, I saw my friend about to take a photo and he pointed out the new life to me.

This morning, however, sitting in my backyard with my mug and my book, I was overwhelmed by the harmonies of the chorus of dozens of birds singing. There was no not-noticing here. I was actually paying attention, looking for signs of the Spring, affects of Resurrection in Kensington.

May you not be too busy to notice as I was, yet I hope we can be open to others pointing it out. May we all sit in the glowing newness even in the face of the dirt and grime and know that Christ is indeed Risen.

I sit in a swirl
Of the whole of creation
Singing out to You.

Finding Peace in the Dentist Chair

Recently I found myself in a terrifying spot—the dentist’s chair about to have wisdom teeth pulled. I started my visit with my heart beat increasing and tears welling in my eyes all before the dentist walked in.

When he finally did walk in and confirmed that he would not be putting me “under” but simply inserting needles (GIANT needles to me) full of local anesthesia into the roof and base of my mouth, the tears that had been welling up started to pour out and I had to tell the dentist that I was terrified of the pain and of hearing him pulling out my teeth. Someone in my cell had actually warned me the night before about the ‘CRACK’ that I would surely hear while in the dentist’s chair.

The dentist was not pleased with my fear and was frankly pretty upset. He told me directly that I would simply need to calm down or leave. He said that all my “freaking out” would accomplish is that the teeth would probably be harder to pull out and that the local anesthesia would wear off faster, thus I would cause myself more pain unless I calmed down.

He left the room to let me try and pull myself together. I slipped on my cheap headphones purchased for $5 on a recent flight. One of the earphones didn’t work so I knew that I would still be able to hear the CRACK, if there was one. I knew that I had to pull myself together, but I wasn’t sure how.

Then I remembered that people in my cell were most likely praying for me right at that moment and that enabled me to pray for strength and for peace right in that moment. But how the heck was I supposed to do that with tears running down my face and my heart still racing?? Then I remembered a simple breathing technique that we’ve done at Circle many times. Breathe In—JESUS, Breathe Out—SAVES. I then changed it to Breathe In—JESUS, Breathe Out—PROTECTS ME.

After saying that little mantra over and over and over, I finally felt my heart slow down and the tears drying on my cheeks. I was ready for the dentist.

Thinking about it now, no wonder the dentist was upset, I was basically saying with my tears and racing heart that I didn’t trust him. I am certain that I do this with God all the time. Trusting that He is taking care of me and not being afraid of putting myself out there to be vulnerable is so hard to do. I guess in the end, I end up causing myself more pain by trying to handle fears by myself then trusting in God to carry me through it.

I’ve been with Circle Venture as the treasurer since May, but I still find it terrifying in many ways. Hopefully the experience on the dentist chair will remind me to trust in God and remember that simple breathing exercises are a big way to connect to God.

Trusting in God for strength may be working. Four months ago when I was asked to blog I conveniently had some excuse, but now I felt like I should just do it. Trusting in God—one step at a time. Breathe In—JESUS, Breathe Out—PROTECTS ME.

It’s Always Something

Now people are afraid of the Chinese. They are outdoing the U.S. in business, bailing out our banks. And pretty soon all of the millions of newly-able consumers of South Asia will be driving around some tiny car and polluting everything to high heaven! It scares people.

But the poor Chinese! They had a record snowfall in January which meant that everyone trying to get home for the New Year festivities (around February 7) was messed up. Not least of the problems was the fact that government-controlled electricity prices created a disincentive for electricity producers to bear the cost of rising coal prices, so they just stopped producing, contributing to the cause of the power outage in Guangzhou that stranded hundreds of thousands factory workers who were trying to get back home to spend what little holiday they got. To top it all off, there is a pork shortage (60+% of Chinese protein comes from pork, and it is integral to what mom makes for New Years)! The government had to open up the pork reserve (yes, they store frozen pork in case of emergency) to keep from having another Tiananmen Square episode.

It’s always something. The Chinese are scared, too. It is not like things are working great over there. There is always something to be afraid of.

Lately, I seem to have talked to a lot of people who are feeling a lot of fear. I think the climate of our country since 9/11 has contributed a huge amount to our sense of being threatened by unknown forces. Maybe the U.S. is just catching up a little with what the rest of the world has been facing all along. Regardless, we’re feeling it.

There are political, economic and relational things that can be done to add to our sense of safety. But let’s be Christians about it. We should know that all those solutions are not enough. And we already know that the best we could hope for has already been given as a gift.

1 John 4:18 “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear.”

Luke 12:6-7 “Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.”

Maybe if we all sat down for 30 seconds upon reading those truths again and let God tell us whether he really means it or not, we could cause a fear-reduction in the climate. Give it a try and see if it does anything for you. Ask Him. “Do you love me or not? Are we OK?” And make sure to ask, “Am I worth something to you? Do you really mean it when it says you look after me?” When I am most afraid, it is usually helpful to get my feet replanted in Jesus before something else tries to rip the rug out from under me. It’s always something.

History in the Making

February is recognized as Black History Month in America.

The Reconciliation team at Circle of Hope is pausing to consider February as Black History month, and I’m encouraged by what we’ve been sharing. Here’s a sample of what I’ve gleaned from our discussion and some thoughts after each one.

Black History in America is American History.
Strange that the two might be considered separate or that Black History might be segregated into one month’s worth of discussion. Karen VonWinbush had us consider that black history month has a history, too, starting as a week before it was expanded to a month. I appreciate that people in our country are encouraged to pause and to take an intentional look at our nation’s past in honor of those who gave of themselves in difficult struggles and in direct confrontation with racism in America. I’m thankful that during this month there’s reminders everywhere of blacks in American history. You can find reminders of Black History in America on TV programs, in TV commercials, and in the responses to TV commercials, in the public schools and in restaurants. In our Circle of Hope you’ll hear reminders of Black History, too, on blogs (thanks Nate) and in the PM inserts. Lots of reminders, and all in an attempt to bring to light a history that is rich with both pain and perseverance.

Black History is still being made in America.
The best part about Black History in America is that it ain’t just history. The history makers aren’t just encapsulated in wax museums (Though I personally do recommend seeing The Great Blacks in Wax Museum in Baltimore, very cool). The struggle to speak truth to racism continues with the living. We are still in an era of “firsts” when it comes to Black History. First black Winter games Olympic individual gold medallist Shani Davis in 2006, first black solo flight around the world Barrington Irving in 2007, first black Billionaire Robert Johnson in 2001, first black runner for democratic presidential candidate Shirley Chisolm in 1972 (sorry Barak Obama, that “first” was already taken). And don’t forget those who get labeled as the “last”, there is still much work in our country to address the disproportionate occurrences of poverty, imprisonment, inadequate housing conditions, and inadequate education which are harsh realities of life for too many black people in America. History is still being made. Despite the myth of equal opportunity in America, racism still needs to be addressed with truth and reconciliation. And there’s still room for young history makers, for example, Peta Lindsay, the 23-year-old Philadelphia native who is the spokesperson for A.N.S.W.E.R. (Act Now to Stop War and End Racism), a national Student Coalition.

Jesus Christ is leading the movement of racial reconciliation
I was beautifully reminded of this at the last reconciliation team meeting when listening to our friends of color express their frustrations to the group about living in a white-dominated American society. Our authentic relationships in Christ were being made stronger in that very moment of honestly sharing and listening. The relationship we share with Jesus is strong enough that we can begin to have that raw discussion openly. The Spirit of God is among us! What a privilege to be a part of the reconciling kingdom of God. There’s no other umbrella that can unite people whose history is so rife with hate and segregation. I am not among those who trust that the nation state of America can pull off a lasting unity by itself. I trust the strongest love of Jesus Christ to heal the wounds of racism. We need to receive and give the love of Jesus Christ together, us united with God through him. We have the examples of Christians in America who trusted enough to bring that reconciling love to light in the face of racism. Consider some of them as well. We paused as a network to remember our Christian brother Martin Luther King, Jr. on the weekend of his celebrated birthday. And how about Ruby Sales, who is the founder of the Spirit House Project in Washington DC, and is aiming for a non-violent and just world by exploring the legacy of American violence, racism and sexism. And then there’s Graylan Hagler, who serves as a pastor and as the National President of Ministers for Racial, Social, and Economic Justice. I am encouraged that our Lord is mobilizing his people to bring truth and love in the middle of our fragile world. Among believers, black history month can also be about the perseverance and healing presence of Jesus Christ in the world.

Do you know of someone or, better yet, a team of someones, whose lives are confronting racism in America and re-shaping our landscape? Remind us of who they are. Do you have a story to tell during black history month? Tell it.

Christian Love and Justice

Over the past few months I have engrossed myself with the writings of Flannery O’Connor, a southern, female, Catholic author during the 1950’s. Her work frequently visits themes of Christian love and justice. These stories engage what has frequently been considered the absurdity of Jesus’ explicit command in the Sermon on the Mount:

“You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you” (Matt. 5:43-44, NIV).

The debate surrounding this command reaches as far back, believe it or not, as Aristotle’s account of friendship in books viii and ix of the Nicomachean Ethics. Aristotle argues that the virtuous person must love good, wise, and virtuous people and must hate those who are evil. If one shows love, mercy, and compassion to one’s enemies then they will harm you and your friends. To allow such harm to come to good, wise, and virtuous people is unjust. Therefore, love extends only to good and virtuous people while violence and retribution is the proper response to evil. Justice requires these dispositions.

Historically, Christianity has responded to Aristotle’s monumental claim in two ways. One line of thought, lead primarily by Thomas Aquinas, seeks to make Jesus’ scandalous claim less scandalous. The latter view, championed by Soren Kierkegaard , argues that the absurdity of Jesus’ command must be embraced. For Kierkegaard, pure love disregards the ‘object of love’, concerning itself only with the intention of the lover. This means that true love looks beyond individual distinctiveness within particular objects of love. In other words, love does not recognize the good or evil in any person as a precondition to love; it loves all equally and unconditionally.

So what says Flannery O’Connor? In her short story, A Good Man is Hard to Find (warning: spoiler), a traveling family wrecks their car in a ditch on their way to Florida. When a group of individuals approach to ‘lend a hand’ they recognize one as a wanted criminal. This criminal, The Misfit, systematically kills everyone in the family except the grandmother. Precisely at this moment, the grandmother looks at the Misfit’s “twisted” face and thinks she recognizes him, “Why you’re one of my own children!” She reaches out a hand to touch him and the Misfit springs back “as if a snake had bitten him” and shoots the grandmother “three times in the chest.”

O’Connor offers a representation of Christian love in the Kierkegaardian fashion. The grandmother extends her love to the Misfit in hopes that he might also recognize the good blood that flows through his veins. He responds by murdering her. This extension of love results in the grandmother’s death, her sacrifice if you will. Kierkegaard argues that this is exactly what true love requires; it is, after all, the way of the cross. How, though, with this view shall we speak of justice at all? How can we protect our own lives and the lives of our loved ones if we embrace this form of sacrificial love? Should this be a concern for the body of Christ? Shall we embrace this absurdity, which the world calls foolishness, and love our enemies to our own detriment? Is there some truth in the cry from justice in the world, that we must defend what we love (freedom, equality, our children, etc.) from evil? In a Post-Holocaust world, is this kind of love possible?

I have no answers to these questions, and I suspect that Christians will continue to debate them for years and years to come. Yet I do continue to stand in awe of the immensity and pervasiveness of Jesus’ controversial claim. No longer may we love only what is good and beautiful, but, as God’s children, each one of us is called to respond to Jesus’ words: “Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you.”

Hopeful

I am a new mother.  Dominick, my son, is now 3 months old.  I have learned about hope from Dominick.  When Dominick was about 2 weeks old he became very fussy. Basically, anytime he was awake, he was crying.  Nothing we did seemed to help, except walking up and down the stairs.  I cried many tears of frustration during those weeks.  But I learned about a mother’s endless hope.  Because I love my little one so much and want the best for him, all I could do was hope.  I hoped that someday he would enjoy life and that he would not be fussy for the rest of his life.  In the midst of a very difficult time, I held on to the hope that Dominick would grow and develop out of his fussiness.

            I am often overcome with hopelessness.  I see our city full of violence. I see people making destructive choices. I don’t see the growth in my own life that I would like to see.  I wonder if people can really change.  But I have learned that I can have hope.  In fact, sometimes that is all I can have.  I want to love others to such an extent that I can’t give up hope, that all I can do is hope. And this hope is not an empty hope because Jesus is our hope.  He has promised us new life.

            Dominick did get better. He now smiles and is happy for longer periods of time.  He is growing and developing at such a fast rate.  His growth and development make me long for the growth and development of myself, our community, and our city.  And now I am more hopeful that it will happen.  I cannot give up trying to contribute to that growth and development because I love my city and community too much.

mourning Eden

I couldn’t help but be annoyed at the truck that slowed down and pulled right in front of me as I was about to cross the street, only half a block from my house- “What is he doing?”. I saw the driver glancing hastily across the street. The slowing down of the truck incited a quickness of pace in two ladies walking across the street. After a quick exchange between the two, the two ladies ran to the corner, one splitting across the street and the other yelling to her companion, in a warning yet caring tone, “Be careful, baby!”. Looking around suspiciously, she walked to the mans car and got in. Few other assumptions could be made at this point about the nature of this encounter, this road was being used once again for a sexual encounter drive-through. It was not quite 9 a.m. I carried short sequence of happenings in my mind for the rest of the day, and the for the following week, really.

Why does this reality take the form of an oppressive weight my soul? I think of the life of the woman crossing the street, and the events that might have led up to her life being what it is. I think of the man in the car; what absence of human relationship does he have that he needs to pay for the fleeting ecstasy of sex? I think of the kids passing on their way to school, who are well aware of what has just happened. They simply make fun of it.

Let me not be sharing this to further drive guilt or hopelessness in anyone’s heart. Most can empathize with the heaviness that the realization of personal and systematic evil can bring on the heart. But I suspect that many of us, and I give myself as an example at this point, experience this and continue our regular fast paced lifestyle, running like a prisoner hoping senselessly that his shackles will be shed by treading at a faster pace. At many different points in my life I’ve been presented with the phrase “we live in a fallen world” (sound familiar?), but is sadly often used as a passive justification for acceptance of evil. I don’t suggest this as a good response either. But, as followers of Jesus, I suggest we allow ourselves to feel the pain that surrounds us, and give ourselves time to weep for the corruption in the world (and that we are part of, in some way). The teachings of narratives in Genesis come to mind; the Garden of Eden being created in peace and for peace, and humans instead choosing to construct their own systems of power and idolatry.

Luke tells us of Jesus weeping over the city of Jerusalem, burdened with the reality that his message would not be accepted, that Jerusalem would not recognize the things that make for peace (Luke 19:41). I need to remind myself that it is OK to do this. I need to spend time mourning to the Creator for the seeming hopelessness that sometimes overwhelms. Our hands are indeed God’s hands for healing the brokenness of the world, but I need to allow myself to feel sorrow for the oppression and sin in it, too.

Lord, hear our prayer.